Sunday, July 11, 2010

Personal Spelunking

I used to write a lot. In fact, I was always proud of my writing and considered it a strength. Somehow, over the years, I lost confidence in my ability. I'm not sure what happened but every time I sit down to write I become paralyzed. Will I be too honest, too revealing? Will I make mistakes? Will people think I'm stupid? I've just had this overwhelming feeling of not being good enough. A mental block of, "why bother, when others are better?"

I've resolved in recent weeks (a byproduct of turning 30, I'm sure) that I'm just going to start throwing stuff at the wall to see what sticks. No more hesitation, no more holding back. Barf it out and let the rest take care of itself. My goal is to use this blog as a means to get over my writer's block by speaking to the things that make my world turn. Hopefully, as a result, I'll learn about myself, find my confidence and be able to apply this exercise to other areas of my life (and perhaps discover a focus for my writing). 

As the title suggests, we are all braver, smarter and stronger than we think. What others see in us isn't always what we see in ourselves. But I feel that once we start to love things about ourselves, we find that the things we love are often the very same things people admire in us. And that, dear reader, is the place in my heart I desire to explore.

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